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Atomic · 2004-02-03T13:58:03-06:00

what the hell?? my girlie.. well.. i guess now ex girlie.... :( we had a great relationship.. and everything was fucking perfect.. i get mad at her one night because she started putting up this wall between us (i wasnt even that mad.. just concerned.. and i told her this..)..because all of a sudden she went from being the perfect girlfriend to being a completely unemotional shell. so i wanted to help her and find out what was going on.. maybe we could work through it. so she decided sunday night that " cant treat like deserve to be treated." and went on to say "i cant be in a healthy relationship with you right now.." and.. "i need to work on myself before i can be with anyone." what the fuck is that crap?? :shoot: and while shes completely ripping my heart out and crushing it into tiny vaporized little pieces, shes just sitting there.. cold and unemotional. "this is what i have to do. please say goodbye." and today.. she text messages me "i hope things are going well for you. i wanted to know if you could send me my things. dont think this isnt hard for me too, but its what i have to do. im sorry." i tried to tell her it doesnt have to be this way.. but shes fucking determined to throw it away. she even told me while we were together, and she was sane, "i may try to run, if i do or try to break up with you, remind me of how good i have it and dont let me." so.. OK.. now, im doing that.. i tell her "right now youre doing all those things you told me you never wanted to happen.. and those things you told me you never wanted me to let you do." and she just gets pissed and says "im doing what i have to do. please dont make this harder. tell me you'll send me my things. i need to do this." what the fuck am i supposed to do man! :cry: :shoot: :( i dont understand this.. its fucking stupid. now i got nothin. just my band. that occupies alot of my time.. but man when there isnt anything to do or when im trying to fucking sleep all i can think about is her and i havent slept in days. what the fuck. i dont know what to do.. i cant get through to her. and i cant sleep. my 3 close friends i have left from high school... 2 are married to each other and never leave the fucking house.. and the other fucking turned into a corn flake. so now all i have to occupy my time besides my band is to fucking think about her and miss her. the worst part is.. she was my friend for 5 years before we got together.. my best friend. now not only have i lost someone i truly love.. but my best friend as well. i told her this.. and she has the nerve to say "how do you know im your best friend?" AFTER she fucking admitted a long ass time ago that i was her best friend and she was mine. what the fuck i was going to marry that girl. now i'll be lucky if i can fucking forget about her. :( -Joe-